The last couple of months seem long as I was wanting to share but waiting until we had answers or news. Right now it seems like I would prefer the waiting.
We do have some of the answers to the pain Bob is having, which has been getting worse at an increasing speed. We doctored a fair bit over the pain Bob was having. Drugs for the stomach, a cortisone shot in his shoulder, increased morphine but nothing seemed to help. The oncologist had a difficult time with the pain since the multiple myeloma was not active and there were no new lesions on the skeleton. He told us that if the pain was more than Bob could bear to come to emergency at Foothills. Dr. B had made urgent requests for scopes--top and bottom as well as an ultra sound and a MRI. These appointments were still 2 weeks and more away. We called and told Dr. B we were coming and he called down to emerg to have them watch for Bob. Once you are admitted as a patient these tests come very quickly. Bob stayed in hospital on the medical oncology ward for five days.
Bob had a biopsy done on the pancreas after some of the testing showed cysts and folds on the pancreas, and not sure how they see in. Maybe shadows?? We went home and had to wait to hear the results. We received preliminary results but our oncologist was determined to not say anything conclusive until the pathology came in. On Sept 21, Dr. B. called late in the afternoon to tell us there is a malignant mass in the pancreas. He is not calling it pancreatic cancer since the biopsy sample was small???? Since then we have learnt a few more things, that at this point are not substantiated.
I have to say the weekend was tough. Trying to get our heads around this news and Bob still having pain and trying to work things out with the folks at the pain clinic.
It's alright-------questions, pain and stabbing anger can be poured out to
the Infinite One and He will not be damaged.
Our wounded ragings will be lost in Him and we will be found.
For we beat on His chest from within the circle of His arms.
from a little book entitled When Life Takes what Matters by Susan Lenzkes
Tomorrow Sept. 27 we head back to Tom Baker to see a, new to us, doctor, Dr. Sutherland. This is for a consultation. What or if anything can be done? Dr. Bahlis gave this doctor 5stars, Dr. Farrah gave him a thumbs up and Dr. Google was also most positive.
As we talked with Dr. B today he said some extraordinary things. We have to believe that God was saying 'I am here and I am still walking with you." Scripture says: "I will never fail you. I will never abandon you."NLT Dr.Bahlis began to tell us that he prays for us, that no one can understand why these things happen. He told us God cares and one day we will all understand. As the tears rolled down my cheeks he handed me a tissue and he cared. Bob said "that man knows where his Power comes from.'
Waiting to see how the battle will unfold.
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