Thursday, August 7, 2014

WHAT!!!!

What!!!  Bob just called home.  He is not a happy camper right now.  Bob just spoke with his oncology nurse.  Marcie told him that yep the pain in his hip is coming from a cancer tumor near the hip joint.  Marcie said that they weren't going to do anything other than the chemo protocol that he is now on.  We hoped that maybe radiation would be used.  "WHAT" Bob answered "nothing??"  No, just take pain meds.  Bob told me he went and took 3 double strength Tylenol.  Bob really doesn't want to use the Oxy.  

Bob's big concern is how long will they want him at work, as there are a lot of stairs to go up and down in the course of his day.  Please pray that the pain will be minimized and he can hang in a little longer with his job.  We had hoped that he could work until he was 67 but that is a ways away.  In the mail today we received notice of his next appointment with Dr. Bahlis which will be on Aug.27.  

Instead of going to look after the kids at Mike and Cori's house, the kids are coming here which I think will be easier for us what with the awesome park on our doorstep.

I read this quote in a novel that I was reading this summer, just fluff,  but this struck me as being so true.  It is a long process to learn, but totally realistic as I see it in Bob and desire to be unselfish too, as we deal with the limitations.

"True love is not the helpless desire to posses the cherished object of one's fervent affection; true love is the disciplined generosity we require of ourselves for the sake of another when we would rather be selfish."

Saturday, August 2, 2014

August 2014

Hard to imagine that this is the August Long.  I hadn't been aware that this is the most sought after weekend, in the whole year, for vacation time.  Even more than my birthday!!!!!!! December 26 in case you didn't know or even Jesus' birthday on Dec. 25.  We often celebrate together!!!!!!!  This long weekend we are at home celebrating the long weekend --a little bit here and a little bit there.....  Trust that you are able to spend some time outside this weekend and have time away from the regular routine.

Bob's brother Gerry and his wife Claire were with us for a few days.  They parked their motor home in Okotoks and commuted in and out of the city with their very cool car.  They tow the car so it is a bit of a train when they are on the road.  We were able to have that camp fire experience one evening and enjoy a camping bar- b-que.  We had a very nice visit with them.  We also celebrated Claire's birthday even tho it was a bit early.  They are now off to Claire's family gathering.  Thanks for taking the time to visit in Calgary.

 All of our immediate family except for Bob's dad have now been here this summer to check us out, as well as our new home.  I am thinking that they all agree we are doing great in our new surroundings.  The fact that we are in a condo blows some minds but they have returned home  assured that most of our grey brain cells are working and we have chosen wisely.  God is good.

Our neighbors from Elgin Place have not returned home........nice summer long vacation so I am still watering their few plants and checking the house.  My reaction is that God totally used this time to wean me from our old house and yard.  When I look at it now it seems almost foreign.  I know that sounds odd but it does.  The feelings have gone and it is a yard that perhaps the owners need to do a little trimming in, but whatever it is their yard.  Soooooo I got to thinking that perhaps that is how God want us to begin to look at the things of the world that we live in.  It really is a foreign place for us, we are travelling through and stop and enjoy some things that this world has for us but our eyes should be focused on the life ahead, the one that we will have one day with Jesus.  I am still working on what that looks like for me, each day, but am learning.  I thought that by my age I would have life figured out but it seems that is not the case.

Bob's visit to the doc etc. becomes very unremarkable and yet it always is remarkable simply because of the science behind each visit and how the Lord chooses to use that science.  There is "something" that is showing up on the PET but Dr. Bahlis will wait for the report from the radiologist.  The hip is not any better and requires the use of the cane to make the support better so that Bob doesn't have a fall.  Our worry is that with the weakened bones from the cancer a fall would cause a break and open up a totally different pandora's box.  The pain is horrible-----Bob explains that it is like the back pain from six years ago.  Bob has only taken the Oxy one day.  That drug is horrible with the side affects so not sure what will happen as we go forward.   

Today Bob started a new protocal  continuing to use the pomalidimine but now adding in prednsone, rather than the dex, and cyclophosphamide.  This time Bob will loose his hair again (but bald is the rage) and continue on with the many other side affects especially being very tired.  We are trusting the Lord for His mercy for Bob and that the side affects will be very minimal. 

We are going to care for Mike and Cori's kids next weekend.  We are looking forward to it, however please pray for strength and energy for us and a very special time to bond with the kids during grandparent only time. 
Next long weekend------back to school  YIKES.