Deciphering

Taking me a long time to get back to the blog, I allow so much to take up my time in drips and drivels.  Truth be known I am also a horrible procrastinator.  Today the sun isn't shining so it is the kind of day that suggests putting ones thoughts on paper would be ok.

This week Bob will not be having chemo so we are still deciphering how just receiving the velcade on last Fri. is working.  Without the other two drugs some of the velcade side affects were more noticeable.  The nausea and sick feeling stomach lasted through Sunday.  Bob does take the anti nausea drugs so he wasn't actually sick, which is a blessing---he just didn't feel that well.  The neuropathy is bad, his feet are just "crawling", so Bob is using the Tiger Balm but probably not as often as he should.  He also thought that he would stop taking gabapenton.  This is to help with the neuropathy.  Sheesh I forget which side affect that drug gives Bob that he doesn't like.  Anyway you get the picture, so Bob is taking that drug again.  The big side affect is being tired, probably from everything.  After typing all that I would have to say that Bob is doing well!!!!  There is no cancer pain (bone pain).  He is working pretty much full time again.  He leaves work earlier when he needs and on any treatment days, or Dr. days, Bob is able to take the time as needed.  Sooooooo very thankful for this job.  Bob's desire is to work as long as he is able.  A friend asked "didn't he want to take the time and retire and do other things?"  Bob hasn't gotten to 65 yet and as we are not independently wealthy he was striving to hit that goal first.  We have never travelled so travelling is hard to think about (crazy, I know).   Perhaps there will come a time when we would chance to dabble in travelling, other than to see family.  Bob just replied to his friend "I like to work, that is what I know".  The hobbies that Bob has take a fair bit of change to accomplish as well.  All in all in my deciphering, Bob is great therefore I am great.

We just celebrated our  FORTY THIRD wedding anniversary!!!  You may wonder, just like we have, "how is that possible!!!!".  I will tell you a wee secret:...... we were married as children.(laugh now)  Well, now a days, we would have been considered almost children.  However we were full fledged adults and knew everything.  We learned life together over these 43 years and learned that we knew almost nothing.  Every marriage is a huge learning curve----wow!!!!  Thinking how fast time has gone by can make me feel pensive(as perhaps melancoly is to strong a word!!!!?! ) Three years ago we had our pictures taken for our anniversary.  Bob was totally off of drugs at the time and was looking so very well.  I sent a number of those pics out kinda like an anniversary card rather than wait for Christmas.  I did this mainly because I didn't think Bob would ever be as well as he was then.  Now these three years later, he is still doing well.  I (we) have learned so much about trust and dependance and acceptance and the love of God during this time that for us not one of these days has been wasted.